My two fears
The fear of being alone and procrastination are two common struggles that many people, including myself, face in various aspects of life. While they may seem unrelated, they often share underlying emotional causes that impact both mental well-being and productivity. By understanding these challenges, we can begin to address them and take steps toward healthier habits.
The fear of being alone
For me, the fear of being alone goes beyond simply being by myself. It’s not about solitude, but about the worry that I won’t be able to form meaningful connections like the ones I have with my mother and family. They’re the people who truly understand me and provide the emotional support that helps me feel grounded. I fear that, in the future, I might struggle to build relationships that are as deep and fulfilling as those I have now, which makes the thought of being alone even more overwhelming.
This fear isn’t just about dependency; it’s about identity and belonging. Being with those who truly know me makes me feel like myself. Without them, I fear losing touch with who I am. I’ve come to understand that even when we’re not physically together, that connection remains a part of me. This fear, in the end, isn’t just something to overcome, it’s a powerful reminder of what truly matters.
“Being alone doesn’t mean being lonely”
– Jiddu Krishnamurti
Procrastination
Procrastination is something I struggle with, especially when it comes to school. I tend to delay starting projects or engaging with new subjects because I often feel overwhelmed by the amount of work ahead or fear that I won’t do it well. Whether it’s a big assignment or learning something new, I find myself putting it off until the last minute. This causes a lot of stress, and I end up feeling guilty for not starting things sooner, even though deep down, I know I have the ability to handle them. It’s a cycle that makes it harder to get started and adds unnecessary pressure as deadlines approach.
On top of that, I often feel guilty for doing anything other than schoolwork. Even when I try to take a break or focus on something else, there’s a persistent feeling in my gut telling me I should be working. That guilt makes it hard to truly enjoy time off or stay present in anything unrelated to school. It feels like there’s no room for anything beyond my studies, and that constant pressure adds another layer of stress. Instead of recharging, I just feel like I’m falling behind.
The fear of being alone and procrastination are emotional hurdles I face regularly. Recognizing these issues helps me slowly take steps to challenge them, aiming to feel more at peace with being alone and getting things done without so much delay
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